[Ordinarily, he would've let her work it out on her own. But circumstances are special this week, and it's by an urge that he reaches down just enough to touch her shoulder.
coaxing rupe over for pets has been forgotten in favour of hunching herself up and pressing her hands against her mouth, trying to breathe slower and deeper against the urge to start sucking in air like she's drowning.
it's not the quickest process, but it works. slow and steady. ]
... I don't have much more to lose.
[ it's a very quiet admission, but it's followed by her hand rising up and covering rufus' -- squeezing once, before she straightens up. she presses her hands to her eyes for a few seconds, firmly, and then drops them to her sides. ]
You... know you forgot your pet, then. That's definitely what happened?
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[Rupe sniffs some more, taking his time to examine Alex's hand. Perhaps she'll be able to pet him in a moment.]
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Who are you to tell me if I've lost too much or not enough?
[ she looks back down at rupe again. ] They'll come back, they're just taking time. That's what Doctor Theo told me. I'm not suppressing them.
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Who's that?
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[ shady doctor, but a good one. ]
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... Not... that I know of.
[ ... her hand has sort of frozen where rupe was sniffing it, and after a moment her hand drops to the ground to steady herself. ]
Would I even know if I had?
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[He looks down at Rupe, who peers up at Alex.]
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But I don't... I still remember everything. I think I still remember everything, I...
What did I forget?
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Breathe.]
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coaxing rupe over for pets has been forgotten in favour of hunching herself up and pressing her hands against her mouth, trying to breathe slower and deeper against the urge to start sucking in air like she's drowning.
it's not the quickest process, but it works. slow and steady. ]
... I don't have much more to lose.
[ it's a very quiet admission, but it's followed by her hand rising up and covering rufus' -- squeezing once, before she straightens up. she presses her hands to her eyes for a few seconds, firmly, and then drops them to her sides. ]
You... know you forgot your pet, then. That's definitely what happened?
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Yes. I didn't recognize him when I woke up.
[The animal in question doesn't seem to mind this. He's still dutifully following Rufus, after all.]
You should review what you know for gaps.
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[ are there any significant gaps from when she joined the benriya until now?
she doesn't know. nothing leaps out as being incomplete, broken or lost in some way. she remembers faces, names, big events... ]
If I did lose a memory, it doesn't seem to be something big...?
[ she glances down at rupe, after a moment. ]
It looks like he still knows you, though.
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[Of himself and Rupe, that is. That's one of the reasons he's realized that Rupe is his.]
If you're that concerned, you should write what you can remember down. There's paper in the inn.
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[ ... ]
It'd be better than forgetting everything.
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But if the Realm is to be believed, gathering nova should restore what's been lost. If not, you can always wish for your memories.
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... Just the right one. In this case.
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[This time, he'll really go. He walks away with Rupe bounding after him.]